Farwell to Stampin' Up...but not MY demos!

I am soooo sorry for not posting yesterday. I needed to give myself 24 hours to think before I could write. I almost always just blurt things out without thinking and that gets me in heaps of trouble!!! :) Because of the sensitive nature of this post, I wanted to gather my thoughts first. Yesterday was one of the hardest days of my entire life- and I have had a few. We all knew that layoffs were coming. We had been told almost 30 days prior- but nothing can ultimately prepare you for it. I had seen and overheard a few things at the office that led me to believe I would be leaving. I felt prepared....until they called me in. They were generous in their severance for me. I respected that. I came out of the room and all my team mates were crying for me. I never felt closer to each of them. I cannot even begin to describe how much I will miss each of them. And I won't be able to pull myself together and finish this if I do. I walked into a conference room, called Teresa (my wife) on the phone and I sobbed like a baby for 10 straight minutes- I have rarely in my life experienced such pain and anguish coupled with a wee bit of anger :) I felt like I had failed my family. But I got it out and that was that; no looking back. I have been asked a lot if I feel like things could have been handled differently? Sure I do. However I do also understand that it was a difficult day and there really wasn't a good way of doing any of it. I hope SU does not have to go through this ever again. I wish much success to the company. I have a few other things I want to say:

First of all let me say, I LOVE every SU! demonstrator I have ever had the privilege to meet. I have formed friendships that I know I will have for the rest of my life. I have loved being able to talk to so many demonstrators at events and they just make being away from home so much easier because I always feel like I am with family. Makes it a little easier to be away from my little chickens (kids). My heart was truly warmed today when I literally received hundreds of calls, emails, blog entries, posts, and texts from demonstrators. I have felt your prayers all day today as I have struggled to make sense of all of this. So keep those prayers coming! I need every one of them :)

I LOVE Stampin' Up!, as a company. I strongly believe in it and what it stands for. Shelli Gardner created an incredible company and in doing so created many lasting memories for me. I respect her enormously. She has always treated me with the utmost respect and kindness. Once I even sat next to her on an airplane (I know, how jealous are you?) and talked her ear off (imagine that- me? Talking an ear off?) and she didn't even complain one time! Wow! Shelli loves every single employee and more importantly, every single demonstrator.

I LOVE the people I have worked with for the past 5 years. What incredibly talented people. I am sad for every single person laid off-very talented, dedicated people. I would love to say I understand why it had to be this way- but I do not and may not; not yet anyway. But what's done is done.

I LOVED picking the kids up from school yesterday for the first time ever. Malorie said "So did they give your job away?" I said "no but they did send me on an extended vacation." She was ecstatic! I looked in the rear view mirror and saw all three kids lined up across the back seat laughing and playing, put my sunglasses on and cried the rest of the way home with a giant smile on my face. Man I love those three rotten little things!!! :) I picked them up again today and loved it again. But also said " Don't get too used to it. Daddy loves it but Daddy needs a job! " :)

I will keep finding inspiration in little things, and finding ways of staying in touch so we can continue to bless each other's lives. And if you need somone to clean your stamp room- I am your guy! (mostly cause I am unemployed-ish) I hope our paths cross many more times throughout our lives and God willing, I know they will.